Started reading the bible mid twenties.
Baptized shortly before 25th birthday.
Was excited to start new life.

Was really looking forward to finding a girlfriend. But, haven't found one.
Days turn into weeks turn into months.
Then 5 years, then 10 years.
Then 15 years, then 20 years.
Then 25 years, then 30 years.

By all accounts I'm a tough dude.
But going home from work to my empty home was tougher. Eventually I started bursting into tears at work. Eventually I couldn't face work anymore. The debts mounted and I lost my home.

I sleep in the park.
Meh.
There's only so many times I will ask for something for myself. If our heavenly father wanted me to be happy in this life, I would have found a partner by now.
He chooses to ignore his children.
Make us heartless like him I guess.